So, Scad does it again, Screws me over.  I cant imaginehow or why but as of yesterday I have no place to live. Thats righ...apparently loans didnt cover apartments, after I talked to the office and they told me i am fine I have an apt. On top of that I have charges for them dropping me.
It s just not fair. i wanted to stay on campus because I work all hours of the day and I need to run back and fro, and now I cant because its just not safe.

So im looking for an apartment.  Ai :( I did everything posible this year not to go through this and yet here we are.

I dont write these often enough.   Probably should start on a semi reglar basis.

 I was talking with this guy and he told me a story which made my jaw literally drop. I had no idea what to do. Kept sitting there like omg are oyu serious!

So his friend is a truck driver. The man works mon-fri and has the weekend off.   He gets off early from work and goes home. Walks in the dorr and finds his wife and his nephew doing the deed on the livingroom couch.  Now who is to blame, the nephew, or the wife? Or both? I say blame the wife cause she prob got the nephew to do it but then again the nephew could be the one to blame. I kinda forgot how old the nephew was but it doesnt really matter for the sheer shock of the situation is enough.

Ok so maybe having your husband away for 5 days straight and not getting any is a pain in the ass, idk not married not my proble, but cmon what leads one to bang the 3rd generation.  Eeek.  Mid 30 libido and teen hormones prob do get the better of  both. 

How weird life is I am never surprised, well ya I am a bit.  Whats weird is how things can take a sudden turn when you change the smallest thing.  if somthing doesnt suit you go ahead and say something cause then sometimes everything gets better. 

I am the type of a person who doesnt say much unless im just silly with friends or when something concerns me, and when it conerns me it has to seriously bother me.  Recently a few things happened that basically made me a nervous wreck, i was in distress, still am actually, hope it will stop soon.  But the good thing is that

What does it take for people to change?
For some its some type of induced emotional trauma that they are faced with and cant escape no matter how much they try. For others its the simple act of living through the days, weeks months and years that makes them turn around and approach life and the universe they are revolve around in a different direction. No matter what this different factor is in anyone's life there is a constant factor, or at least i assume so, and that factor is people. The aspect that has the most effect on us is people that revolve around us.


Its quite sad that more often than not the people that are around us are somewhat vile individuals who are not true to the way they are. In other words their entire persona is a mirage that is presented onto the world.

I personally am tired of this, I think it does no good, it ruins things more than fixes them. Im tired of people who act one way towards you and then turn around and do a 180 on you. People are weird creatures, they are a little bith like kayote or even hyenas. Ok that may be pushing it a bit but seriously most people around me at make me feel uneasy. im afraid of what they may do or say or if what I say will be turned around and placed on its head and in the end make me look awful, Ive made a conclusion of being more careful with people and not trusting peoples actions. A very little percentage of people are trully natural in their demenour and thats really really sad.

And to end this I think it takes a lot for people to change but most wont change because thats not in their nature. People cant look past themselves and see how they are in relation to everyone else. So I guess you yourself can change and you should not have any predisposed ideas that someone else will. For in the end you will be not only messed up but also disappointed and thos two combinations arent great.